I don't mean it's "out there" like Donald Trump's hair is "out there". I mean there is help available. Life is short. Don't wait.
Sometimes just talking to someone is enough to get you on the right track. A close friend once said "I was laying in the hospital feeling sorry for myself because I couldn't walk very well and then I saw someone without legs". No one is so bad off that there isn't an answer somewhere. Find self help for anxiety and depression and get your life back.
Take a trip to your local library. There are books for everything. There is a whole section devoted to self-help - self help hypnosis, alcoholism self help and self help for anxiety and depression. If you don't like to read, see if there is is a tape or CD dealing with self help for anxiety and depression.
Don't waste any more time. Just Do It!!!!